I reach the bridge,
The one I'm forced to cross
I stand there and wonder
If it's really worth the cost
The cold winds surround me
As if forcing me to move
But as I take a step
I know I have to prove
To prove what I've become
And what I must do
As I cross the bridge
I know what I have to loose
I look back
As I know it's for the last
But all I see is lost memories
The memories of a troubled past
Darkness consumes my heart
Comsumes my mind
Slaughters my pride
Swallows me whole
Never letting go
No feelings but fear and pain
Why must I go on in dismay
Tears fall on the inside
smiles amuse a lie so great
No one sees a darkness so powerful
For a light so dim
Why must it show
No one will know
what they wont understand
Darkness comsumes my whole
Nothing felt but fear and pain
I am darkness with no name
I am darkness without a face
Invisable is all I ask
I can't bear this dark so vast
Invisable is all I'll be
Untill this darkness will no longer be
No longer me
Anyway, I drew this picture to go along with the poem. Does it work? lol. May not be a good pic, but it's an expression of me, and i'm not perfect or neat, so it fits me.
you'll see me today, when you walk outside
you'll leave me today, and never say goodbye
You can't see my pain, you know that's a lie
you don't know my name, you'd never even try
you'll walk passed me, with out a glance
you've condemned me in the worse way, with out even a chance
faceless person in the crowd, that is all i'll be
till you leave me again tomorrow, thats all you'll ever see
you look different everytime, everyday that you walk by
but you're really just the same, you'll leave me again today
you'll see me today, when you walk outside
You'll leave me today, why should i try
to become visible, to what i dispise
to be seen
You look different than before
I never knew you were something more
Laying helpless
Your strength, it bleeds for encore
You were the somthing which was lost
The substance I was waiting for
The conscience I could never find
The hope that I never tried
I've killed my love
The love I never knew
I murdered that love
That love was you
I watch your blood rush down the knife
My weapon of choice was my own life
Blood stained words fall silently
Who knew I would come to end so quietly
I never cared, I never felt
I always thought you were something else
But you were the conscience I never knew
The way in which I'd never choose
I've
I haven't been on here since about november, when I actually said that I was going to keep up with deviant art. I know that deviant art isn't all that important, it's just a website, but I really do enjoy seeing an sharing art with a wide range of people. And I miss talking and commenting with the people I used to on here, and I miss seeing your guys' work, and perhaps most of all, I miss creating art myself. This rant is probably less about deviantart than it is about what my life has turned into. theres nothing to express, I've become this hollow shell of nothingness. I think I need to go back to school, if only I could pay my school off. B
I haven't been on here in quite a while, untill this past week where I have been trying to get trough my thousand+ deviations on my deviant watch list. I Have been looking at them at work, and I am happy to announce that I looked at them all! never thought I'd get through them. haha!
other than that, it'd be nice to keep up on this site, and post again. I just haven't been doing anything to post. I guess I need inspiration. You should give me some.